Knowing What I Know Now
	I was shocked only by the names I was called, and for the places they'd put me in, and from where I'd been expelled. I didn't know that. It shocked me, and I think it makes you different if you know that, it makes you harder than you would be normally. Some of it is upsetting but I think, for me, it's been great now that I know most of it. I think you understand what's going on if nothing else. It helps you in understanding yourself a lot more. And after being in hospital for over 20 years I think, you know, it makes you a lot stronger when you come out. It has me anyway, it's made me a lot stronger. It's because of all the things that you do now that you didn't have the chance to do when you were younger. It gives you that and, OK, you've got it, you've got it for life, and it tells you everything.